Heaven

A lot has change in the past few days... My grandfather passed away yesterday. He fell outside that night while taking the trash out and was found that morning. By the time he got to the hospital his body temperature was down to 70 degrees and they tried to bring it back up and once it reached 90 degrees, he had a heart attack and they couldn't bring him back. It has been hard but I know he is in a better place now with my grandmother and my Mama. So he is happy now. No longer lonely. But it still hurts to know he is no longer here. 

R.I.P Mimi and Papa. 

Heaven is just too full of people that I love... 

**Self Esteem Issues**

Take a look at this video...

We look in magazines everyday wishing we had this or that or looked like her or him.

This is why we wish that...

This is how they look so amazing...

Dove Evolution from TubularGoldmine - Video

See Tristan (my son) on Santa's List

This is just so cute!

I can't wait for Tristan to wake up and see it! 

Tristan made Santa's List 

"http://family.go.com/santas-list/video/177094-what_a_feeling/" - 

You can Send your Picture, or your child's picture to Santa and See Which List You've Made This Year.

One of those little things that kids seem to really appreciate. :)

Merry Christmas!

Christmas Time.

So this year I have been quite the slacker... I have not put up a tree or any lights... the neighbors put some lights around our apartment but I have not done anything. My reasoning behind this is not that I am a bah-hum-bug but we have such a smaller area now with our apt that I have wanted to wait until next Christmas when I could really go all out. I know, that is really selfish... if it makes any difference I had my son color a Christmas tree....
I have just been in a little bit of a slump...


My Mimi died 3 years ago and lately I have been thinking alot about her. The other day I was at my Papa's house and I asked him about her ring... what ever happened to it. He didn't know. I had always wanted that ring to have when I was married and to pass down... and I know that is so selfish but well needless to say he doesn't know where it is and doesn't know who has it. So it kind of bummed me out because I dont want to ask any of my family about it... whoever has it wanted it and probably would not have any sympathy for my wants...
So I have just been kind of down about the lot of it.


But this Christmas is one of my favorites because I have someone who loves me and wants to be with me.


So needless to say I am happy. And loved.


Just the thoughts for the day...

R.I.P Mimi. I miss you and love you!

This is me, my little sister, My mommy (R.I.P) and my Mimi (R.I.P.)

I miss these days.

Goodnight all. Merry Christmas.

Hug the Ones You Love.

So today has been such a long day… Didn’t get hardly any sleep last night and then today I was lookin around on myspace and remembered a few things.

September 24, 2007 A friend of mine, whom I had known since we were kids was killed. Murdered. Before that, I had never really known anyone who had been murdered. And then, all of a sudden I did. We were really close as kids… untill I started dating this guy (mind you, we were in maybe 6th grade) that she liked and it was war then. But we made up. Right before she died we had started talking again. And then one day, I got a phone call that she had been murdered.

I went to her funeral but shut off all of my feelings. I was with my ex and my parents and I can’t be real in front of my parents. I left quickly because of my ex, he didn’t wanna stay. So instead of mourning, I ran away from the pain. They asked people who knew her to stand up and say some things to her or about her… I should have stood up. I should have stood up and said

“Tiffany, you should be here now! I’m sorry we fought. I’m sorry for breaking the girls rule, never date a guy yur friend likes. Im sorry you are gone and we are still here. Im sorry that we never got a chance to finally get together and put the past where it belonged. I remember you, with braces, playing at church, running around at church camp and your smile. Your big smile. “

Thats what I should have said. I should not have sat in silence… I should not have left.

I think it is time for me to visit her.

She would have been 22 this year, December 7th was her Birthday.

Time goes so quickly.

So hug the ones you love, tell them how much you love them and never let a day go by where you don’t do something that one day you will regret not doing…

XOXO.

R.I.P Tiffany.

Really bugging me...

This has been bugging me... 
There was a story, it must have been a few years back, about a little boy who was shaken by his nanny and was in the hospital. They did all sorts of things and then finally he was taken home.... he was not well though... i want to say he was in a coma. and now I can not remember his name and I reallly wanted to find out what happened to this innocent baby!?!
Did he survive? Can he speak? Can he see? Can he walk or crawl?
It has been driving me insane not to be able to remember his name... 
I know there was a Myspace page for him... but his name!?!!?!

Christmas is so near....

So it seems lately there are only a few things that I have been doing. One would be school. Final week for this quarter so I have been trying to get everything done. 
Second would be Christmas, Christmas and Christmas. I have been finding last minute gifts and buying and wrapping and laddy da! I love the spirit of Christmas but hate the money aspect of it. Now I know why my mom used to buy gifts in July... But I could never keep my gifts a secret long enough... 
And then lately it seems my son has been sick or in  bad mood. Gotta love 3 year olds. 
So needless to say, it has been hectic here. 
But I did get great gifts for my son and my boyfriend and maybe I will get myself one now :)
Time to finish the school work.